29 – my thoughts and vision

Here I am, at 29, and feel no different than at 28. Well, that is not completely true though. Cause I don’t feel different from who I was a week ago, but I definitely feel different from who I was a full year ago having just finished my 28th revolution around the sun. It is always kind of weird looking back, and yesterday I was sat here with my neighbor and started just looking through the photo album I made from 2019 – and we were both very much certain that that was a completely different person. That was the year I finished my bachelors degree, moved to this city I’m still in, and started working as an auditor at BDO, where I still work.

The most visible difference from the pictures, is that I was still very much in a FOMO state of mind. So scared of not fitting in or be surrounded by people, and not so scared of never living life as who I felt like on the inside. When thinking back I was kind of determined to work really hard at not really being myself. Both in who I thought I had to be for the work I was going into, and wanting to try and fit into a place I remember very much not fitting into when I last lived in the city. And only four years after 2019 was over, I am here – still not really feeling like I know my place in the world or what my purpose is to actually be, but compared to that version of myself I have come such a long way of settling in my self I almost get tears in my eyes thinking about it.

Since it now has been a couple of days since my birthday, I have had a bit of time reflecting over where and who I am now, and what I want this year of life to be. And I do think my main point of action is to not really do anything big or new for just like one year. There is one thing I hope will happen this year I have not done before, but as that is something that’s been in the works and planned for some time – I don’t really count that. But other than that I want to just complete what I am doing, continue with what is working, and having the big thing happening be mental.

I will be finishing my master’s degree this year, and then get back to working full time again. But other than that, I want to just focus on moving my body the way I like, spending time on my creative endeavors as knitting and sewing which I have become really comfortable with. As well as continuing on my witchy and spiritual path, that I have gotten on over the last like six months – and working on my shadow self (meaning mental unknown parts of myself) to better figure out who I am and who I am meant to be. I am really excited! And I really aim to focus on being 29, and not just thinking “soon to be 30”. Trying to live in the moment – I’ll get back to you on how I manage with this! heh.

Of course, I have also made a new vision board for this year – trying to keep it simple and to the point – and thought I’d share it with you. We’ll do a review later and see if anything needs editing with how the year progresses, but at least I’ve got a starting point. So, let’s try and make this year the best it can be!

Q: Have you made your own vision board this new year? What’s the thing you’re looking most forward to on it?